My Confession, Part Two: And A Challenge

I have yet to go to yoga again this week. This is my confession.

I have excuses, but that's all they are. Excuses. Not real reasons.

I said Sunday that I thought I knew why I'd slacked off on going, and I definitely think I was right. I am psyching myself out.

Originally, I planned to wait on signing up for the teacher training program for a month or so, and I wanted to challenge myself to practice five times a week until then, which is the requirement for the program. This, of course, made my brain seize up and spaz out. Even after I had decided to sign up yesterday, I've still be feeling panic at the idea of practicing, which is just silly. It's like now that I've taken this next step, I've placed all this pressure on myself to be better or more impressive than I am, which is just...silly.

So how am I combating this?

With a 10 Day Yoga Challenge, of course!

Which absolutely seems counterproductive, I realize this. "Oh, I'm feeling pressure so let's put MORE PRESSURE ON MYSELF!" I'm a genius.

But what have I been saying about momentum and inertia? When I don't go, that allows a sliver of doubt to creep into my soul, and it's harder to get me back to the studio.

So why don't I just...not not go for 10 days? Or at least try?

That's the idea.

I can do any class I want. Restorative, non-heated, whatever. It just has to be 10 days.

Aaaaand....go.

My Confession

Okay, okayokayokay.

I did not go to yoga at all this week.

At. All.

I mean, since Saturday, in SB. For shame.

Lazy bum.

I could scold and beat myself about it, or I could just be like, "well, okey doke then", and start fresh tomorrow, which is what I'm going to do, after I confess to you.

Which I just did.

And distract you with a gif of a monkey riding a goat.

These are my confessions.

1) I paid $1.29 cents for the only Justin Bieber song I've ever heard in my life (someone covering "Baby" on X Factor does not count). I heard it just once, it got into my brain, and I could not get it out no matter how hard I tried. GOD DAMN EARWORM GET OUT OF MY HEAD. I feel shame. "Swag swag swag swag..." "FONDUE."

2) I have still yet to stay OP for a full day. Yesterday was okay, but not great. I can do it today, oh yes I can yes I can.

3) I also have not gone to yoga. Of course. Because I'd rather throw away hundreds of dollars on a membership I don't use than get off my lazy bum. BUM.

4) I've also brought my laptop home both nights this week. So much fail.

5) I just got lost down the YouTube rabbit hole of pug videos for an embarrassingly long time. It all began with this.